There are ordinary things around us that are full of beauty.
The beauty in a sunrise.
The beauty in a delicious homecooked meal.
The beauty in being reminded of what God can (and does) do.
The beauty in the eyes of your child.
Sometimes it's the beauty you find when you see the heart of your husband, laid out for the world to see.
Sometimes its the beauty in remembering where you should be finding your joy.
Sometimes its the beauty you find after a long weekend, in a box full of toys.
You know those moments when you're doing a mundane task and time seems to stand still? I had one of those moments and it was so overwhelming, it took my breath away.
I was picking up the toys in our living room at night after a long weekend of indoors playing since the Hubby got his wisdom teeth taken out. To be honest, I was completely frustrated because I was tired, 5ohHubby was still not feeling well, I was about to go to bed when I realized the living room was COVERED in toys. I was begrudgingly tossing them all into a basket and thinking "Gosh, there isn't enough room in this darn basket for all 5ohBaby's things!" when all of a sudden it felt like I was slapped in the face.
HOW BLESSED AM I?
First and foremost, I have this little girl who I do not deserve and there are so many would be mother's with empty arms. That fact alone would make me drop to my knees. And on top of that, I had this box FULL of memories and love.
Like the frog 5ohHubby bought at the grocery store at 7am the morning after we found out we were pregnant with 5ohBaby. We found out a few hours before 5ohHubby had to work a graveyard shift. We were so happy and so freaked out that when he walked out the door to work all night I was still reeling. Imagine my surprise when he came home that next morning with bagels (my fav), a bouquet, and this little toy. He loved her from that first moment and couldn't wait to spoil her.
There is the strange yellow doll that supposedly sings but sounds more like a scream to me. This toy was given to 5ohBaby by our nephew who was gone for far too long. He has another one just like it and thought 5ohBaby loved it so she could have it. I've prayed for that kid harder this year than I've prayed for anyone outside of this 5ohFamily and to see to have him here, loving my daughter, is more than I could have hoped for.
I know to you it might seem like just a box of toys. It seems like that to me most of the time, too. But not last night.
Last night, I saw friends and family.
I saw hopes and dreams and answered prayers.
I saw all the love that surrounds my daughter and our 5ohFamily.
And I'm telling you, it takes my breath away.