You see, for month's God had been convicting me to let go of sponsorship on my blog. I don't think that is necessary for everyone, but it was becoming necessary for me. But I was scared... and to be honest, I was mostly scared about the lack of blog income. Not that I need the income to survive or anything, but last year this little blog paid for all my blogging expenses (including conferences) which made it easy for me to justify the time I was spending on it. Basically it paid for itself which was a blessing. So when I started to think about letting go of that income I started thinking I'd have to let go of some blogging extras including conferences.
In particular, this meant The Influence Conference which I was crazy blessed to attend as a community leader last year. I know that if I asked 5ohHubby, he would still let me go. But for a lot of reasons, especially knowing that 5ohLittle would barely be 5 months old at the time
And you know what? His plan for this blog was so much crazy better than any plan I could have made for it. Because He gave me a job. Like, an actual legitimate job. A job glorifying Him. A job working with women that I respect and love. A job in ministry toward the hearts of other women. A job where I can use my crazy organization and delegation skills. A job that will grow me and stretch me but that I can do for Him. A job where I still get to attend The Influence Conference.
Just days after I posted about letting go of sponsorship I got a text from Jessi basically saying that Hayley and her needed to talk to me about something and wanted to check on my due date before they got into it. I knew they were going to ask me to do something to help out with The Influence Network and I immediately started praying. I probably would've don't just about anything they asked but I was praying "Ok, God.. you told me to step back from good things to open myself up to better things. Please let them ask me to help out in some way where I am skilled. Let it be something that I enjoy and something where I won't let them down."
That day they offered me the job of Conference Manager which is so crazy right up my alley.. well, its crazy. God said "you're worried you can't attend the conference? Well, why don't you PLAN the conference?" Yeah, God has a sense of humor all right. I can't even tell you how perfect this job is for me and how much I love it and love the conference and am just happy like crazy. The rest of the core team: Moriah, Rachael and Lindsey are amazing and have worked so hard to make the network what it is and I am so happy to come alongside them.
Jessi said something that day that really struck me. She said "It's so funny.. we've been looking, talking, and praying about having a conference manager and couldn't think of who the right person would be. It's like we were blinded to you and when your name came up we were like 'YES!' " ((sidenote: AFTER I followed what I knew God wanted for my blog)) So I just want to encourage you out there. If you feel sure God wants you to do something but you are fearful because of XYZ reasons just jump right in and follow Him. You have no idea the blessings He has in store for you.